Monday, December 15, 2014

Halley's Comic Returns


You didn't hear it here first, folks: Nonplayer #2 is done and in the can.

There's a lot to write about, but I'll start with answers to the FATQ (Frequently Asked Twitter Questions):

When will it be on the stands? Looks like I juuuuust missed the Previews deadline for April, so probably May. Yes, it feels like a long time from now. It's after Emerald City, where I would very much have liked to debut the comic, which makes me sad. My best convention option right now is San Diego in July, but obviously I've completely missed the window for reserving a table. So if anybody has a table at SDCC that they'd like to share with me, please drop me a line. I swear I don't smell that much worse than the usual convention-goer. I am happy to pay for my portion of the table.

Will there be a reprint of issue 1? I have asked for this but have not yet received an answer in the affirmative (which isn't to say the answer is "no" -- Image is pretty busy these days). If you want to help this cause, feel free to tweet @ImageComics to remind them that you'd like to have access to the first issue. This is especially important because A) it turns out lots more people buy Image comics these days, and low supply is making copies of issue 1 ridiculously expensive and B) the second issue is pretty dense, and though I don't believe it's completely incomprehensible on its own, it's a much better experience if you know what happened in #1.

Are you going to do any signings? Yes, I think so. As long as it's a reasonable driving distance from Seattle. I'm already talking to Arcane Comics in Ballard (they're my home shop). If you run or work at a comic shop in the area and you'd like to put together a signing, please contact me!

Are the other media rights for Nonplayer available? Why yes, it turns out that Warner has decided to let their option lapse, so Nonplayer is back in my hands. And no, nobody has actually asked this. I'm pretty shameless.

Why the heck did it take so long to make issue 2? I think the answer to this one is going to comprise the remainder of this post, so let's move down from the oppressive confines of this Q and A format. See you in a second.

Hi. Ah, that's better.

Okay, so here's what happened.

The first issue took just a hair longer than a full year to complete. That was me working without a deadline, without any scrutiny from any kind of publisher or press, using Photoshop (a program with which I was very comfortable). So that's our baseline. A year. A very long time by comics standards, but within an order of magnitude of the amount of time detailed comics have taken, historically (see Darrow, Geof or French Comics, all). Future issues of Nonplayer needed to be at least as handsome as that first one, so it was destined to be a slow ride from the start. But exactly how slow, I had no idea.

When Nonplayer #1 was released, a few things happened. As I have detailed here in the past, there was quite a bit of distracting hoopla (at least by my standards). Between promoting the book, fulfilling poster and comic orders, Googling myself, hanging out with all my new comics friends, talking to Hollywood big shot types, and trying to answer every comment on DeviantArt in a meaningful way (man, that was cray), the amount of time left in a day turned out to be quite small. So regret #1 is not having made more hay while the sun was out, because I had a finite window of full-time access to the comic, and a lot of that time was spent on things other than drawing.

On top of that, life took a turn for the lame almost immediately after issue 1 hit the stands. I have debated the wisdom of sharing this aspect of my experience with the public because it might feel like a play for sympathy, but since it was such a major feature of my life at the time (and now), I feel that there's no reason to conceal it anymore. On the same week that issue 1 was released, I got a call from my stepdad in Ohio about my mom being ill. It turned out that she had Pick's Disease, a rare form of early-onset dementia, the symptoms of which had been manifesting for a couple of years prior to her diagnosis. We'd had a couple of weird Christmases in Ohio, but somehow we'd managed to convince ourselves that she was just developing hearing problems.

One thing about mom's illness that is particularly beautiful and heartbreaking is that her coworkers and boss apparently loved her so much that they covered for her for almost two years before finally letting her go. Her work performance had deteriorated to the point that her presence had become actively harmful, and everybody just worked around it, which is a big part of why her family never suspected that anything was going seriously wrong. So to the good people of Vorys, Sater, Seymour and Pease, thank you so much for taking care of her (and by extension, her whole family) for so long. 

Anyway, once the diagnosis was official, Mom and Mike moved straight to Seattle so that we could be together while she was still herself. I wish I could have spent more time with her. But I saw her at least once or twice a week, and she got to meet her grandson a few months before the end. She passed away last year.

No, Nonplayer 2 isn't late because my mom got sick. But her decline formed the backdrop for a couple of very unpleasant years. I crashed my bike a few months into the project and broke my collarbone, which put me out of action for a couple of months. Then the money ran out, and despite my best efforts to get a second title going, things just didn't click.

Meanwhile, I ended up having to throw out the original first six pages of #2. They felt like they had been drawn by somebody whose eye was not on the ball, which they were. When I finally shook off the brain-fog and gave the first pages an honest read, it was clear they'd have to be redone. Super bummer. On top of all that, I had contrived to switch from Photoshop to IllustStudio to streamline my pipeline. Not only did it take me a while to get comfortable with the new interface, the work I did with the program felt lifeless because of the way the linework was automatically stabilized. I finally found the right settings to replicate the feel of the first issue, but that took time. And then time ran out.

I went and got a job at another game company. And while the people I worked with were lovely and talented (and many of whom are still close friends), it was a very demoralizing time for me. I remember sitting at my desk at work a couple weeks into the job and just wallowing in self-hate and resentment. I fantasized about walking out the door and roaming the land like Caine, with nothing but my Cintiq strapped to my back, drawing Nonplayer at diners and coffee shops across our great land. I'd just spent a couple of years working on the Thing I Loved, and now I was drawing gems and elves for a freemium mobile game. They gave me money and were really nice to me, but every minute I spent there was a minute not spent on Nonplayer, and a minute I'd never get back. It felt like slow death. And then after two years there, they canceled my project. So that whole period is just kind of a weird pause in my life, career-wise.

It was during that time that I started working on Nonplayer in the very early morning hours. I joined the Holy Order of Viking Draftspeople, a group of other artists who were also working on personal projects in the wee hours of the morning (see #HOVD on Twitter -- lots of people there still working on rad stuff). Progress was excruciatingly slow for me. An hour or two every morning, just adding a few more lines, a little bit of color, and then off to work. With time at such a premium, my blogging stopped almost completely. Every once in a while, folks would poke at me or wonder where Nonplayer had gone, and there wasn't really anything I could show or tell them. I was half-done with the book and was literally getting a face drawn one day, a hand the next day, a telephone the day after that. It was like crossing a desert on all fours with no oasis in sight.

The whole point of Nonplayer had been to work on something that I loved, but under these circumstances, it was no longer fun. The end was nowhere in sight, and I was getting a lot of disappointment and hate from fans, retailers, and even friends. I felt like a total failure. My office was a couple of blocks from Zanadu Comics, and I had to walk past that shop on occasion. The embarrassment I felt was so great that I sometimes crossed to the other side of the street to avoid having to face what had come to symbolize my total failure at life. My coworkers would sometimes go inside on their lunch breaks and when I tagged along I felt what seemed like a physical weight on my shoulders. They had a signed poster from issue 1 on the wall, which made me feel bad until they took it down, which felt even worse.

I was in a bad place!

I really thought about quitting. My work on the book slowed even more. I played Kerbal Space Program. I got super into SpaceX and rocketry in general. I doubled down on cycling, bought a fancy road bike, and started going after Strava records. I got a little happiness wherever I could. Especially in winter, it was hard to find reasons to be happy. My wife carried me through this time, and I'll be grateful for that forever. When I bogged down completely, she offered to help the process move forward by helping me out with flatting. Just having that vote of confidence was a huge help. A few other folks still gave me encouragement online, but without Jiyoung's support, I would have thrown in the towel (I'd like to add that I also received enthusiastic flatting assistance from Matt Harding, who did an amazing job -- you should buy his book PopApocalypse right now).

And then in May 2013, my son was born!

For all the extra lost time that his arrival entailed, it also forced me to focus. Yes, on many mornings he would (and still does) choose to wake up at 4 AM, completely disrupting my work. But his arrival also got me to stop playing video games (haven't touched one in more than a year), and to be more pragmatic about my goals. He got me thinking long-term again, and I wanted to show him that there was value in making progress on something, even if that progress came in small increments.

That, and he just makes me happy. You work better when you have happy chemicals in your head.

So that brings us to now, I suppose. Honestly, the end caught me by surprise. I'd concentrated so much on just putting one foot in front of the other that when I finally looked up and noticed I was standing in daylight on the other end of the tunnel, I couldn't believe it. I had a funny exchange with my agent after I sent him the final PDF where I just kept repeating "am I done? Oh man, is this thing done? I can't be done. Is it really done?"

Yep, it's done.

Is it a Pyrrhic victory? Will the book be overlooked now that so much time has passed? I don't know. I hope not, obviously, but I certainly don't expect a repeat of the buzz that surrounded the first issue. Which is probably a good thing, because it'll be a lot easier to concentrate on #3.

There's a lot of other stuff to talk about (plans for Nonplayer and the future in general), but I'll stop here for now.

I'm happy right now, guys. Thanks for waiting.

39 comments:

  1. Congratulations on making it through to the other side! Creative work is such a battle even under the best and most forgiving of conditions, so you really do deserve some kudos for stuggling through, despite what some of the internet haters might say. As a sometime member of HOVD (although its been awhile), I will raise a horn of mead to your Viking prowess with one hand, and a wacom stylus with the other, this yule season, and I'll look forward to having issue #2 in my hands next year.

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    1. Thanks John! For the record, you're welcome back among the Vikings anytime. We may go dormant, but we never die. Yeolp!

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  2. Comgrats! and good luck in #3.
    Good to know that you are keep working on it, even with all those (good and bad) things happening in your life.
    Cheers from Chile!

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    1. Thanks man! I hope you're still doing crazy awesome artwork in Chile!

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  3. Just stoked that you have been overcoming things and moving forward! Congrats! Looking VERY forward to #2!!!

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  4. great news, can't wait to read #2 ! sure its going to look as smart as the first :)

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    1. Man, I hope so. I vacillate from feeling like it's way better to feeling like it's terrible. History will be the judge, I suppose. Thanks for the vote of confidence!

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  5. This is great news, Nate -- both about the book, and your creative life in general. Glad you're in a better place, and I look forward to reading #2 next year!

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    1. Thanks Gavin. Yes, I'm very excited to move on to #3. It's got lots of fun bits.

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  6. Congrats! :D
    I'm happy you didn't give up, great success!

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  7. Amazing story Nate, just incredible that you've been through all of that and still come through with the goods. We all experience terrible times, but my usual reaction is to crumble and give up. You skirted that possibility, clearly, but you got there in the end and that is some serious strength. Way. to. go.

    From down here in Melbourne, Oz, as a happy owner of three printed copies of NonPlayer #1, I'm stoked for you and even a little proud. Well done man.

    @mikedoeslife

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    1. Thanks Mike! The journey is far from over, but comments like yours make the miles go by faster. Cheers.

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  8. You're my hero Nate. Even with all that thrown at you, you still finished Issue 2, one face or hand at a time.

    I need to learn that kind of perseverance. I know you get frustrated but it's better to have something to show for your time, no matter how long, than years of "I wish I would've done that thing."

    Time to take a page from you, my friend.

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    1. Totally! Toss a #HOVD on whatever you're doing and share it with the rest of us Vikings! The going is easier when you've got buddies on either side of you. Shield up, swords aloft, and give a mighty yeolp!

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  9. Great to hear #2 is ready! Best of luck for the future

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  10. Shit. Where is my copy of issue #1, so I can keep the siblings together? At least I have a few months to find it.

    :)

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    1. Reprint of #1 is confirmed, and it might even have some new pinups in the back. So if you don't find your original, you've got a decent backup.

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  11. Yay! Awesome. Can't wait!!! Already ordered my issue at my local comic store.
    And it's good to know that comic creators are also just human beings with the same flaws like the rest of us ;)

    And PS: Great cover.

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    1. Happy that you like the cover. That big guy will be making quite a few appearances over the course of the run.

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  12. I am glad to know it's done, looking forward to reading it!

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    1. No matter how glad you are, I bet I'm more glad. Hope you like it!

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  13. I still haven't read #1 (I live in Australia and it got too expensive for me pretty quickly) but I've appreciated reading about the up and downs you've gone through from the very beginning. Thanks to long-term health issues I relate to the difficulty in getting things done, and struggling with feelings of failure.

    I certainly hope to buy the comics one day, along with the book about the journey you went through to get them made!

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    1. Man, health problems can really throw you for a loop. I hope you're on the path to wellness now. I found that getting into cycling really sorted me out on a lot of physical and emotional levels.

      Happily, #1 is getting reprinted in April, so hopefully you'll be able to get a cheap copy!

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  14. thanks for sharing nate. going to order a couple of signed copies of #2 as soon as I can. keep up the good work Nate. It's really awesome.

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  15. Kudos sir, your work is exceptional and deserves every success.

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    1. Thanks! That's very nice of you to say!

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  16. I give you a lot of credit for overcoming your fears and pushing forward through all the static and distractions that have come your way. It's always easier to quit than to see things to the end, and most people tend to do what's easiest or choose to do nothing at all.

    You have a beautifully distinct art style that easily rivals a Moebius or Darrow. We really need new blood like you to keep great comics alive. Keep plowing full steam ahead and make your dreams become reality!

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    1. Aw thanks, Jeremy. I am really humbled by all the amazing new talent that seems to be pouring into the industry. I assume you've read Saga? Insane.

      Plenty of much newer blood than mine to get excited about these days!

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  19. Yay! I can't wait for it to come out! Time to pull out #1 and reread it again. Your work is inspiring sir. I can't wait to see how your story progresses.

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    1. Thanks Ramsey! I hope you enjoy the second issue!

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  20. It's much better to take a long time to release something great than to release something mediocre in a short amount of time. I'm really looking forward to this. I hope you sell enough copies that you never have to work on a freemium mobile game (yuck!) ever again.

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    1. It is heartening to me that there are folks out there who prefer a slow-cooked comic now and then. And yes, I think it's a fair bet that I'll sooner work in a buttplug factory than work on freemium games again. Cheers!

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  21. Damn, I feel so shitty that I found out about NP #2 through a news site. I have to admit that I stopped checking up on this site, because of the lack of news, which isn't your fault at all. I know as much as anyone how hard it is to create comics, when you want them to actually look good. You go that extra mile that a lot of people don't,won't or just can't go. And that just takes time, but you have bills to pay and comics ain't paying them and you don't have a trustfund or a rich wife to help out.
    I feel your pain man. I have been following your progress since the LJ days and I am proud of you. To be honest I have kinda stopped drawing comics because of the "today I get to draw a hand" aspect of it. I find it easier to draw more pin up type of things since I feel like I am actually drawing. So much of comics is not drawing for me, its more creating compositions that function to tell a story.

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